It may seem like one chooses what they do, but what is done is mostly controlled by the conditioned self. When this conditioned self is in control, there’s no choice because what is done is already chosen.
If you ever truly want to be free from your conditioned self, it has to be understood. Maybe not totally, but enough to understand it’s not or never was you. It’s mostly through ignorance that this conditioned self is given power so let’s look at some of the behavior of this conditioned self. We pout when things don’t go our way, we judge everyone including ourselves, when our mind becomes agitated we reach for a conditioned pacifier, we use and hold onto outer things to fill inner desires. We want, we want, we want.
This is so important to understand because it allows you to see there’s another way you can be; seeing this is the catalyst that urges one to look for something else. The something else turns out to be the bigger picture, so the more one is focused on that the less the voice of the conditioned self is heard, and the less that voice is heard, the less control it has and the more the bigger picture of creation is viewed.
The bigger picture is never about an individual. There’s very little control over anything in life and that’s okay because needing control locks one into the idea of a conditioned world. So if you ever want to be truly free, the conditioned self will have to take a backseat to the bigger picture, which has the possibility of infinite creativity that one’s conditioned self could never imagine. So don’t limit the unlimited by being controlled by a conditioned self that has nothing to do with life except in a conditioned world.